This is not a Funny Blog Post

If you came here looking for my usual hahahaha funny blog post, my apologies, I'm really not feeling the funny right now.

I'm in such a weird place in my life right now. I'm so pessimistic about my romantic outlooks, pretty anti-men right now, and in general, just angry at the world. Which I think is a totally okay way to feel.

I know it seems really juvenile and petty to be so over love at the age of 24, but the last year has been really rough on me. I got out of a relationship with a boy after we fought for months over me not wanting to have kids. He treated my opinions about it like crap. He said that I was overthinking it and that raising children isn't as hard as I was making it out to be. Which is really silly because raising kids is hard, ask any parent that. And then he contacts me recently saying that he isn't sure why he fought me so hard about that because he actually doesn't want kids. And that he's the perfect SO for me and lalalalala. Harassment isn't a sexy thing. That relationship really screwed me up. And I still haven't gotten over how awful it was.

So that happened. I had a man treat me like crap when he agreed with me. Then I decided that I needed to get out into the dating world again. So I did and I was completely straight forward and said I didn't want kids. It was all cool. But now I'm single again because I don't want kids. I don't want to have love goblins, so obviously that is a deal breaker and makes me undateable. And I really don't think I will ever find anyone who accepts me for who I am because I'm a strong woman who is educated, outspoken, and independent. Oh, and that I don't want to push a human being out of my vagina. To find a man who is not threatened by me and doesn't want kids will be nearly impossible. So I guess I just need to accept that.

I've just really been hurt by men and I am done with it. There is a tragic flaw in me and it's my want to not be a mother. All of this has just made me feel like crap and that I'm pretty worthless in the significant other department. Which sucks a lot because I probably am not. And then when people say that I'll find someone, I get so upset about that. Because will I? Where is this magical person? Everyone I know wants kids, so I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be alone. I'm just really over all of this love crap. Because it's really stupid and hurts so much.