I'm okay with being #ForeverAlone

First, I must acknowledge that my ex recently contacted me, so I'm feeling pretty negative about love, but it's whatever. And I guess overall, I'm feeling very pessimistic about men as a romantic interest. To find a man who supports my anti-kid, career driven self is gonna be rough and I've had little luck so far.  I do want to find that one person who I can spend my life with, but I really don't think that will happen. A lot of men want children and I just can't give them that. So I have few options for my love life. And that's fine.

I know that #ForeverAlone is a thing and it's supposed to be funny, but I got to thinking about it. I'm okay with being #ForeverAlone. Yes, I want to have a husband and be a wife, but I'm fine not being a wife. I'm really happy with myself and feeling super duper confident in my life choices as of right now, so I don't need my identity to depend on someone else. Yeah, it'd be super awesome to share my life with someone, but if it doesn't happen, it's all good.

Putting effort into a relationship is hard, especially when that relationship ends and you have to start the process over again. I put a lot of effort into my relationships, so it's exhausting when it doesn't work out, so again, it's cool if I get to just have a puppy family. Because puppies are awesome.

And it's kind of horrifying, the thought of being married. Because if you get married, you can get divorced. Everyone in my family has been divorced. And I'm not exaggerating. Everyone. So, I have just been around that for my entire life. That marriage isn't a forever thing and is easily thrown away. And I don't want to get divorced so the easiest way to follow through with that is to not get married. So, I guess I'm just in this place in my life right now where I'm fine not getting married and being forever alone because I won't get hurt anymore. And I can be my own person.

I don't even know what this blog post was about...